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Why do birds suddenly appear
Every time you are near?
Just like me, they long to be
Close to you.
Why do stars fall down from the sky
Every time you walk by?
Just like me, they long to be
Close to you.
On the day that you were born
The angels got together
And decided to create a dream come true
So they sprinkled moon dust in your hair of gold
And starlight in your eyes of blue.
- The Carpenters

Forget about what i said about the couples to be or whatever...

Two days ago, my mum slapped me hard across the face. Long story. I want to forgive her. it is partially my fault i guesss. Or why would she slap me?

My dad took away my sister's and my money. Any money that is to be given to us will go to my mother. He limit us to $2 a day on school days. I can't survive with so little money. I should just starve myself. My mum is so immature. She thinks like an 8 year old sometimes. I can't handle her. At least i am already very good. I never cut my wrist or whatever shit. Today she called me useless. Fuck. And she does not even let me use the fucking phone. And what more, she hardly even lets me and my sis go out. I am not grounded. All i ever asked from her is freedom. Then this morning she nagged. So i tried to escape by leaving for school slightly earlier.

Thanks cherie for letting me eat your mac food. I have no money that's why. Actualyl wanted to buy some thing to eat. Was so hungry. Went with merlissa, cherie, jasmine, nizam, kel, elvin, clarissa and a girl from 1/1. Then later merl, myself, elvin,nizam and kel, we left first. Then i so dumb, stepped on mud 'hidden' in the grass. Damns... went for IT. Enjoyed internet time and the nice air-con. After went with debbs, shao jun, alyssa and merl to find miss anne to no avail. Then followed merl to the under the block then watched elvin, nizam and kelmond anyhow kicking the ball. They kick so scary. One ball hit merl then after that me adn merl just tried avoiding the ball. then i decided to go my primary school friend's house. Missed her. Now got to see her again. Then we hanged out at her condo the below then went her house to use the inernet. Then i practiced my piano 'skills' . i perfected the song i learned at elvin's hse. ^.^

Then i went home. THE END.

let your heart out.

FIRSTLY...Congratulations on the couple to be. I think to be. She said she was ready. he said he will tell her soon. And yadadadada. Really sweet. Hope things work out for them and it would be the FIRST couples in our class. Yes. I think so. But..blabla.

Today i rushed to school thinking i was 'late' for IT lesson which supposingly started at 9am. But then the teacher said that she made a mistake..blabla. It was actually at 1pm. But whatever. I did not want to go home so went to play soccer with some of the girls and guys.........blabla. Play untill wana die.so darn hot. Simply hilarious i guess.....Then later went to elvins house casue got nothing else to do. Then blabla.........I too lazy to write. YES I PLAYED HIS PIANO AND PLAYED A SONG QUITE WELL. hehehex. Such a show-off right.

But how could the teacher makes us up with 1/7. Like seriously.
BAD.BAD.BAD.BAD.BAD

bUT...Never forget, everyone makes mistakes. Yes.

The n walked to whitesands with alyssa and jaqcueline . Then took the MRT home as usual.
Then when walking in east point, saw my primary bestie. Missed her alot. Then we chatted for awhile, while i ate ice-cream. Then she helped me carry my bag.......bla.

aND EVEN THOUGH I MAY SUCK AT POEMS, I FEEL LIKE WRITING ONE NOW. bUT THE QUESTION IS...what TOPIC TO DO A POEM ABOUT???

let your heart out.

When i look into your face,
I hope i would never have to remember
all the things all the stories you used to say to me.
Flashbacks of our past brought me to my tragic deathe
overpowered by your presence
i am left without a flame
a flame that shone so bright
till you came and blew it out
i was lost
i was hurt
i never knew what direction to take
i followed blindly
but i knew that is was wrong
i needed a hand to pull me out
of the darkness i have fallen in
My symphony,
my rhythm
i have forged your signature on my departure
my sweet melancholy
An emotional state characterized by sullenness
and outbreaks of violent anger,
believed to arise from black bile.

DONE BY, ME. ORIGINAL. ~
No reason why i wrote this. I just felt like it. I don't like anyone so its not referring out to anyone. So please stop asking me so many fucking questions. I'm speechless just to answer. And please stop spreading rumours. You think it is so fucking fun is it? Especially to this girl, i am not lying to you when i say i don't like anyone. if you think i am lying, then you don't know me well. Best if we straighten things out.So please, stop making up accusations. I don't need anymore dumbfuckers in my life. Thank you very much. And sorry if i have made you so damn fucked up angry with me. Let's just be happy. yeah. I don't wish for us to be angry. But you are irritating me with these questions knowingly.

let your heart out.

So clear,Like the diamond in your ring Cut to mirror your intention Oversized and overwhelmed The shine of which has caught my eye And rendered me so isolated So motivated, I am certain nowThat I am..Vindicated

Please. Stop the hate. Li juan and merlissa. Yes. It's best to forgive and forget. Yeah. That's the way. Love your enemies and cherish your friends.

'baby wana rain?' oh wait,' the day want to rain?' WHATEVER.

NIZAM TOOK MY COLOUR PAPER!! It was my group's STARS colour paper. Yes. I shall bring up the past. Then we were like searching for it like HELL. But then i duno what hell is like. So whatever. 'num-chucks'. ahahaa. Then finally saw that he took it. HE WAS SO 'PAI-SEH'.
Mission accomplished.

I bought a web-cam. jealous. Cause don't be. one day if you are lucky-like me, you will get one too. Ahaha. Just kidding. Yet, there's no one laughing.
I wana change my blogskin. But, I love my this blogskin. I made one myself, but then i lost the code stuff. Wasted~ But that was all so pinky. With a girl screaming and things flowing down from the sky. All saying 'Let it all out.'

let your heart out.

Hi again. Today i recieved my report book. Turns out, my mum did not scold me or whatever. I've been telling her that math papaer was difficult and she did not believe me. She brushed it away by saying that it was all excuses. Then today, Ms anne confirmed about what i had said to my mum. She was like saying i was really good in my math and yadadadadaa... my mum was like ohh. Aha! yeah, i am not amking up excuses. * This does not chang the way i feel about ms anne though. Yep. Definitely. So whatever.

Just did some math problem sums just now. It was ok. I managed to do it. Did geog yesterday. Abit boring . But it did not answer my ques, 'why is the sky blue?'
I never wondered how earth came to be or existed. For i was always told god built this place for us to live. So it really did not ever bothered me.
The ques never chanced upon me or whtever. I wanted to change my blogskin but i decided i am very happy with my now blogskin. Ridhwan beat me in this mid-year exam. Kinda expected. In primary school, he always seems to beat me by ONE miserable class position....dada

let your heart out.

Ah. Nizam, I do not want to suck my toe, thank you. But, anyway, thanks for lending me a listening ear and let me rant to you all my problems. You are such a doll. Ahhhhhh.Again. But seriously, you never expected me to have such problems cause i in school so jolly but then i am having such problems. Haizz....SADDENING RIGHT.

pray to the LORD. Tomorrow my mother gona get my report book. Alleluia? No way. I'm afraid. YES, ANDY i will call you back!!! If i remember. Wa lao, on the phone can't recognize your voice man.
Tskkk.But in the end i did regconize lah. So nothing bad!!

Deborah..haizz. Aha. Nothing. Will tALK to you secretly. Seriously this plan is not gona work honeyy..AHHH..
Today got the STARS project. Was okok except that my skirt area the butt there white white cos i sat on the floor doing the damn board. But, whatever....at least did something kinda proud of. Got WONDEFUL comments. Will LOVE whoever wrote these nice comments.!! Ahh love you love you love you. haha. But neverthe less, i had a okok time. Was OK. But my friends the comments got vulgarities. Oi fuck the fucker who wrote vulgarities. Really man, such a fucker. But...my comments NO vulgarities. AHAHAHAHA. Means very good!!
The people visiting our stand was great. They actually bothered to like read the whole thing and ask so many questions rather than some people who just write nice nice without reading. BUT...STILL love you.
At least you spared a thought of nice nice. So-called. I went with alyssa katherine to visit all the 'stores' or stands. OMG. The things kids come up with these days. Almost so absolutely amazing. Haiz.. Creative bunch i guess.
OH GOD. I promised so amny people i will call them today. I love the word 'num-chucks' but is it even a word.
AHH. dAMN. my mum now asking em to shut down. Eh today she 'stormed' out of the house when we argueing. I just kept quiet. My sis did the talking. AHHH..NUM-CHUCKS. AHAHAHAHA

let your heart out.

www.smallfry-frenchfry.blogspot.com Afiq dear blog which i made for him and he has not update yet...

let your heart out.

*Just to inform you guys and girls. I will NOT be posting at my blog so very often due to some stuff my my parents. They don't really let me use the computer much and don't let me talk on the phone. I have to talk 'secretly'. Almost every night i cry even though i seem so jolly or whatever in school. I can't stand my mum. Sometimes i seriously hate her. Just now, she was scolding me(she does this everyday) and then she used SKYPE with my dad and her attitude changed almost instantly and acted as if nothing happened. She just talked to him, laughing about and smiling at me. I showed her this face full of hatred. But she went on smiling. God, she thinks i must be blind and deaf in both senses of the world to not notice the sudden changes in her.
If she can be two different people then i can too. heck what she says. My sister said that to her.SHE IS TRYING TO CONTROL MY LIFE. The one and only thing so-called that i MAY have a little control of. U hate to lie to her and all but i got to REALY and get away from home for awhile....

I am so tired. But i am not going to sleep. Afew days ago in school, can't remeber when cause my brain is so 'meddled' up right now I can't seem to get anything in my brain well enough. But, we went to watch space balls- which is actually star wars which is more funnier and idiotic. Got to relax abit.
** You people keep asking me who i like and i am gonna say this again. I DO NOT like anyone. So PLEASE stop asking me. Thank you.
I wana poke and smash your eyeballs like right now.

my grandma and grandpa came down to singapore. I love and simply MISS them. I LOVE their accent. I somehow holds a kind of warm feeling when you hear it. So british like accent.
TOMORROW GOT STARS.........i wana do somethign else.

let your heart out.

DRILLS, MATH STUFF AND NOW RUGBY. That's what we have been doing in school lately. But we are gona start on the rugby game tomorrow. Played the game before. But was only for awhile though. Ahhhh rugby. But whatever. In school we were left study-free. Which is awesome. I can really get used to this. But sadly, will last for awhile only. Tomorrow there's IT and stuff. Wonder wwhether rubgy would be fun. But's it's kinda like a pain game. The ball si damn hard when it hits your hand.

Class 1/8 stands a good chance of winning the drills. Wait a second. It's my class!!!. Okay. Haha. They say that we were kinda synchronized yeah. Right now i am helping afiq with his COOL KID blog. Visit. www.frenchfry-smallfry.blogspot.com. Wees. I have to go now. My mum's calling me to eat chicken wings? Yeah.

I am reading the book' MEMOIRS OF A GEISHA' for the SECOND time. Cause the book totally rocks.

let your heart out.

Forgot to say that yesterday was my dad's birthday and that on the 19th was fatin's birthday. I must get fatin a birthday present. But then i don't even know what to get her. DA FUNKY MISSY FATIN FARHANNAH. <---- i think she wrote on herr table that time. hehex.

I passed my math. But......my dad was asking me a kazillion questions in the car on why i got so low. I beat soo many of you worms. But heck! My dad is clearly not happy. He was angry over my chinese listening. But the person to me, talk so fast. Can't really undersatnd what they were talking about.

I LOVE my yellow 'fcuking' GLOW-IN-THE-DARK rubber ducky keychain. So cute!
Hmm....the person who helped my achieve this is such a nice person. It is so tiny. Yes. Vulgarities shall be censored. See, no more. Only mis-spelling is here. SEE RENEE AND EVANGELINE WEATHERBYS. No more influencial stuff.

My mum said that i'm becomming more and more rebellious now. I won't be if you gave me FREEDOM. alleluia. But, at this age, teenagers ARE becomming rebellious. There's like kinda no stopping it. Many parents said it cause I HEARD IT FROM THEIR VERY OWN MOUTH.

let your heart out.

I want to change my blogskin. But then..blogskin.com always got some kind of problem like always only have the girlsgotch thing. So no choice. My blog is so lag because i uploaded too many pictures as the wallpaper. But no choice or it will be TOO plain.

My sis , mum and bro just went to church so now i'm alone. Yipee.
But im not following cause..tomorrow i'm going already. Actually i go twice a week. But this week's just once i guess. Well, my dad told us that we could go to my uncle's house to swim tomorrrow. But somehow, i think my mum does not want to go. But hopefully can. Cause i need a tan.

Today went to the central fire station. Was rather fun i guess. My friend overcomed one of her fear of heights .i think she has. I got to play with the siren in the fire engine. Took lots of pictures. But wore home clothes lah. Thankgod. Cause it was so freaking hot there. Luckily never wear uniform. I will show you the pictures soon when i have uploaded it into the computer. Well, it wa sin city hall. Then after i went to eat lunch with some friends. Then...took a short trip to Bugis. Mickey mouse everywhere? Stayed there for a while. Went to take neo-prints. My friends were a bit 'kan-chiong'. Choking the pictures and i got left with the ugly ones. But, whatever. NO ARGUMENTS, PLEASE. But i was kinda mad cause i payed money to get ugly ones. Did showed bit of temper. But then it was too irritating.
LONG STORY.

PS: took neoprints TWO times.
PPS: Lyn sorry could not go out with you. I initially had to go to church but now don't need. But it's too late already. O yea, i going back to changkat. ROD, LYN, JIA YAN AND TASHA FOLLOWING I GUESS. TELL ME IF YOU WANA GO YEAS.

let your heart out.

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try this website out. JURASIC GAS.

let your heart out.

Yesterday nothing much happened. But my mum left my bor, sis and myself a home for a whole day which was rather cool. Cause she said that she can't trust us alone in the house for even a day cause we surely will mess up the place or whatever. But, we showed her! Sadly, she kinda had a little itsy bitsy scolding with us cause she said the place was in a mess.

But..we only occupied 3 rooms in the house only. Which is the living room-where the tv is, our room-where the computer is and the room which has another tv as we wanted to play xbox there. O ya and the phone part of the house. Then she still has the nerve to say that we messed the place up. ARRGG!! tsk tsk..i am dissapointed in her.

Sometimes i hate my mum though. It's a temporarily hate. That time we like i think quarrel then she called me a hypocrite. a HYPOCRITE. Cause i never side her but side my sis instead which i think is totaly correct. HAH! Who's being the hypocrite now.

Then again, I try to forget about these times......better left forgotten and hidden away. Man, i promised to meet Aishah and Sofi for brunch one day. But when!!??

I WANT MY GALILEE COFFEE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I really want it. But the only place that i know of that sells this wonderful tasting coffee is in white sand's library. Im pathetic.
TASHA!! IM STILL WAITING ON WHEN YOU GONA WORK AT STARBUCKS THEN YOU CAN GIVE ME FREE STARBUCKS COFEE EVERYDAY. Though i prefer galilee coffee.

let your heart out.

Sorry haven't post these past few days. Been so fucking tired. On Saturday went to crimate my grandad's body. It was HORRIBLE. Everyone was like crying. We got to go to this like 'showroom'. Then from there, we could see through a glass HUGE eindow. We saw the coffin go into the like furnace. And...TUH-DA. We could see no more.

Anyways. what sucks more is that my mother don't let me go out. Like excuse me, isn't the exams like already over. I really do deserve FUN. If I say so myself. I've been like already sad over this funeral. I really need some happines in this so called 'holiday'. She seriously does not know when to quit with all this you can't go out blabla stuff. Im 13. Im grounded? No, im not so why is she treatimg me like this. Lottsa sorries to Lyn-especially and joey and other people who i promised to go out with like TODAY. But, our parents countrol our lives though kinda. We willl be control freaks one day. Seriously.

o yeah....i went to the temple today. We had to pay our respects to my grandad there. Even though im a catholic, i had to hold the stick. The one used to pray. You know? Ya dig?\
His bones and ashes were there. O yeaa tomorrow i wana go to SENTOSA. But.........
my relatives would ahve to come. my dad says no to the idea of going to sentosa as he saud my relatives right now are old so they can't walk. But i wanna go tanning. Can't you see how damn fucking fair i look. i HATE IT.
And one more thing. I gotta excercise. Im losing all thoses muscles i worked so hard to get. Its really devastating cos i worked so hard.

let your heart out.

At the funeral.I so totally love this picture. Was taken in church.

MOST IMPORTANTLY, look at my hand. Can ya see the picture of the smiley face.? Yea i drew it. Today was art exam and the last day of exam. Totally awesome. Except for one thing. I can't be all so jolly. That sucks. I'm totally digging my smiley face thingy. But then i messed it up with evan's paint. DAMN.
This week is not my lucky week. Totally sucks. My granddad passed away on the errm. 9th of this month. EXAM WEEK darl. Totalyy sad. During DNT exam, i fucking cried. And some people saw it. TOTALLY EMBARASSING.
Misses. Hiaz.
I havent been sleeping. I have to attend. Please see the black circles round my eyes. Totally fucking yuckks.

let your heart out.

Sad things happen. My friend (anoyminous) <----correct spelling. Not sure. THE PERSON got hit on the lip-mouth area. BY THE WAY, this is not obtained froms eeing. Is people tell me one okay. Anyways..THE PERSON was playing soccer than i THINK THE PERSON slidedd on the grass and banged the gate. This is what they told me. SAD RIGHT. VERY LOUD the sound. they told me. Then i guess hit THE PERSON'S lip area. And then BLEED to deathe. No lah just kidding. it just bled. Then friends brought THE PERSON to the general office. then i never see THE PERSON lehhs. THE PERSON missed LISTENING EXAM. POOR PERSON. Hope the person is alright.

let your heart out.

WELL... one-EIGHTrockers are gona get their very own new beautiful JACKET. It's not like the seniors one at all. So we are NOT copycats. So no problemo.

I am feeling so LAME right now. I need da LAME THERMOMETER. My lame tempetature is rising and that SUCKSS.

My sister wants a mohawk. Muahahahahs. Will she dare to do it.

I want ice-cream.
WILL ICE-CREAM EVER FALL FROM THE SKY??!!.
I will be the inventor of the 'LAME THERMOMETER'. Thankyou. APPLAUD please.

And I AM A ARTIST. AGREEABLE.

These are the things that should be in your head. Thank you for reading and putting unnessary things into your brain. Really appreciated.

let your heart out.

STRESSEDSTRESSED STRESSED STRESSED STRESSED.. ......YUPS Thats exactly how i've been feeling these days. My mum's technically breathing down my back to study. Like. Give me a break man. I have like a thousand things to do and I have to listen to her completely useless nagging. Do I have already enough on my mind to think about. I wish she would just LEAVE ME ALONE. Is it so difficult to want time on my alone. Simply, she does not want that for me. STUDY AND STUDY. Im a robot. I dont need sleep. I've found out about that. DRAGS.--- Im upset adn you can already see the black circles around my eyes. Its getting darker day by day. Like wtf. I have panda eyes. Wee..... THANK GOD I GO TO SCHOOL. I get to get away from home. My sister's calling me weak cause i cant take her nagging. Right.........weak for not taking someones nagging. LIFE. you dont own it. THEY'' control it. Love ya friends for being there to make me smile =). Be friends with your enemies. Love your friends. Life will suck without them.

let your heart out.

Name twenty people you can think of rite now. Dun read the ques below until you have written the twenty names.
1) Sofiana
2)Deborah
3)Katherine
4)Nizam
5)Aishah
6)Kelmond
7)Afiq
8)Merlissa
9)Jasmine
10) Colin
11)Shao Jun
12) Lijuan
13)Andy
14)Yuan Yi
15) Jia yan
16)Lyn
17)Kai Xuan
18)Cherie
19)Dominic
20)Ru Jun
how do you meet 14? In coral sec/in the classroom i think
what would you do if you never met 1? my life would never be the same
what would you do if 9 and 20 dated? brokeback mountain! Lesbian version.
did you ever like 19? He my friend lah!!
would 6 and 17 make a good couple? Err VERY!!! The one and only..BROKEBACK MOUNTAIN.
describe no. 3. Basketballer.
do you think 8 is attractive? Very...she is my chicken 2
tell me something about 7. he looks like Ms Doris's cat.
do you know anything about 12's family? Nope.
what would you do if 18 confessed that he/she liked you? lm not les.
what language does 15 speak? English and chinese..she should try indian.
.who is 9 goin out with? I think she's single.
how old is 16 now? 12. Her b'day december.
whens the last time you talked to 13? err Friday.I went to remind him about the CD
what is 2's favourite band singer? No idea!But i shall ask
would you ever date 4? Eh..my brother lehss
would you ever date 7? Sorry afiq.but NO!!
is 15 single? I guess.
what is 10's last name? I think is 'Ng'.same as my science teacher.
would u ever be in a serious relationship with 11? ER-hem. She my daughter.
what school does 3 go? cORAL.same as me.
whats your favourite thing about 5? So very humourous
have you seen no. 3 naked? Thats just gross and sick.
anybody you want to do this ques??If they wana

CREDITS TO NIZAM WHO GOT THIS FROM AISHAH

let your heart out.

October 2005 November 2005 December 2005 January 2006 February 2006 March 2006 April 2006 May 2006 June 2006 July 2006 August 2006 September 2006 October 2006 November 2006 December 2006 January 2007 February 2007 March 2007 April 2007

_Aishah.`
_Cherie.`
_Lijuan.`
_Merlissa.`
_Sofie.`
_BLOOD SISTERfrancesca`
_Deng Lin.`
_Katherine.`
_Jasmine.`
_Evangeline.`
_Shreya. `
_ShaoJun `
_RuJun.`
_Renee.`
_Nizam.`
_oneeight06`
_Syazrin. `
_Kelmond.`
_Tasha. `
_Gillian. `
_Izzah.`
_Joan.`
_Fatin.`
_Fadillah.`
_Afiqah.`
_Suhaylah.`
_Yee ning.`
_Kaixuan.`
_Wilson`
_Vilashini.`
_Eliza.`
_Doreen.`
_liwei/Raul.`
_Wensen.`
_Faris.`
_Faiz.`
_Brenda.`
_Insyrah.`

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