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Why do birds suddenly appear
Every time you are near?
Just like me, they long to be
Close to you.
Why do stars fall down from the sky
Every time you walk by?
Just like me, they long to be
Close to you.
On the day that you were born
The angels got together
And decided to create a dream come true
So they sprinkled moon dust in your hair of gold
And starlight in your eyes of blue.
- The Carpenters

I don't know why, but I kinda miss ncdcc.
I miss the torturous training.
But I don't miss the uniform.

I need training.
or I'll grow fat!
and overweight!
That would suck.
Maybe i do training on my own.
I do situps everyday! =)
it is definitely an improvement.
50 situps everynight bfore i go to bed.

So my tummy wont be huge.

And I'll have abs!
HEHEX
God, Im lame.
But,,also very serious.

Oh ya,
bcos of everything that's going on,
forgot to tell you guys that,,,,
i got my handphone back,
but its a little bit *siaosiao now,
its just because it misses me=)

Today had that supplementry.
had to sit bhind afiq.
which is very good cause he kept turning around to put potato chips on my table for me to eat cause I didnt bring food.
And then later i took cherie's potato chips.
=)

the alter shift class to 1/7. Sat at this person's place got tissue box hanging from the table in a cloth design.
Got magazine under the table.
Wanted to read but then have to do that math test.
I dont know how to do all.
i think i'll get zero altogether.
Scared exam come out this diff,
sure fail.

TSKTSK.
Im so dissapointed in myself.
But,,just now i study geog,,
so good right,
Can see my halo =)

Tmr got bible class.
I dont know what to wear!!!'
Yuan Yi owe me shades!!!
I want them like real bad.

me n lijuan wearing dresses from topshop to ms tan and mr teo's wedding.
=)
and i've decided what to wear on tuesday.
katherine, tues wana come my hse first?
I wana change.
I dont wana weaar school uni.
So awkward.

I want more clothes.
I sick n tired of the clothes in my wardrope.
I need to sms that mdm diana.
The stars stupud powerpoint cannot recieve.
Im worried that i get a failed mark in stars.
I cant fail any subjects,,,
well, cause,,,
Im...
SUPERWOMAN.

Nahs.

I dont want to be that.
I'd rather be a fairy princess.
Then fly away to my castle and get a fitness trainer.
So i wont get fat!
I developed a very habit!
I like to bite the tip of my fingers real hard.

bad bad habit.

i could live forever. But i decided not to.
I would rather create havoc in the after life. Thank you

let your heart out.

I don't know why but I feel like watching, 'A walk to remember' again.
It so nice.

The chorus of that song.
I love that movie song.

Someday we'll know
Why Samson loved Delilah
One day I'll goDancing on the moon
Someday you'll know
That I was the one for you
I bought a ticket to the end of the rainbow
I watched the stars crash in the sea
If I could ask God just one question
Why aren't you here with me?

I had to study like hell mad just now before I could use the comp.
Cant use it next week so treasure this time and tmr and tmr.

I've been so tired these days that I'm dreamy in class.
Science teacher and math teacher both after school wanted to see me to talk to me. Interesting conversation.
Its not really my fault that lesson is boring.
If its interesting, i wont be dreaming.

-Today my brother's birthday-
So,
Happy birthday you dumbass Brandon Maurice Loo Fei.
Then today get to eat pizza.
My favourite pepperoni and hawaiian.

Tmr got supplemetry so early in the morning.
I need sleep. its making my eyes have black circles.
Not nice!
I have plans, wana hear?
- Erhemm.
1. Buck up on my math. Understand the concept
2. Buck up on science, understand the whole thing
3. Buck up on geography, just get high high marks.
4. Pass my chinese, cant afford to fail.

And im doing my plan number 3 on Monday,
going to stay back to attend the geography lecture.
HAHA.
My brother just blowed his cake.

I hate my birthdays.
I always get scolded by my mum .
And a year ago, i cried.
Sad sad story.
Miserable.

Feel so empty right now.
Not hungry.
Just that empty feeling that runs through your body.
Oh..i really wana do well in the exams.
i keep thinking I'll fail.
It is so not building up my self-asteem.

Wait;
I have to say this,
ME AND ALYSSA ARE TWINS.
Really, we are.
I promised her I'll write this.
We look alike right right?
And im fasting also together with her,
But, i get to eat a biscuit or two when im hungry.
This can benefit me alot.
Cause now i can save money from my daily allowance to buy a the stripe bag and other stuff.

To aishah:
Please dont ever even think about harming yourself.
Cause if you do, i will scold you real bad.
like for real,
dont bleed yoursellf for *him
You're too good for him.

remeber that,
Shaojun, i'll take my revenge.
When you're not looking, i snatch your ruuber band and throw to that 2/2 guy or whatever class he is in.
Watch out.

let your heart out.

Im not cooking shepherd's pie,
its been changed to porridge
Porridge.
Yeah, nothing interesting bout that.

Measely little porridge,

She nags;
I pretend im listening,
Actually, i dont give a damn.
Its my life,
the way i build it, the way it's structured.,
I plan it all.
I know what im doing inside my useless brain.
Or so you said., yeah, its useless.

But;
If its so useless,
then how i think smart?
Then you mean that exams time i will fail issit?

Im not dumb.
Im just slow to react.
Cause, just like you said,
I heck care bout my surroundings,
but i care alot.
You see, the thing you dont seem to get,
is that im a very interllectual person.

=)

Went to the airport today.

To get my dad, he went to Shanghai.

Woke up early today to go church.

Didnt plan on going though.

Rummaged through my closet to find something to wear.

Oh my god, ahah.

kaixuan just told me that alot of people cooking porridge.

Then all taste the same how?

Sure get low marks.

DAMN. I have porridge cooking competitors.

That sucks.

I hope my porridge stands out from the rest.

HHAHA. Porridge competion.

God, im lame.

And so, I ,like, love the people who are just as lame as me.=)

I will do some butt-kicking.

boot kicking.

Oh, whatever.

Oh! Elimination. Yeah.

oh shit.

I forgot to wash my schoolshoes.

The old wearing out shoes.

my mum is so sweet right now.

She help me to sew back the buckle on my school skirt.

But also abit irritating.

I wana use the comp without interruption,

then she keep calling me to come out do this do that.

Can i like do it after im done?

Tuesday going chinese garden. its bcause duno what express chinese class pupils compulsory to go.

See, my brain works fine mom. Im in express. =)

From 5pm to 8.pm

Insane right.

That means i'll reach home at 9.00pm.

But i think i wont go home after school.

I'll go sleep at some place.

I've been lost in thought at times over this particular thing.

Its not a thing actually,

i mean as in not an item but like some stuff.

Situation where blabla..

bla.

Wierd huh.

Oh ya, sofi bananatoast, i'll share with you porridge

Not shepherd'd pie- but i know how to make. =)

let your heart out.

Shepherd's pie.
Yup. That's excactly what i'm gona cook up for home econs.
=)
Mashed potatos with like bits of tomato and meat, is that what's inside? Oh, im gona add alitte bit of macoron and cheese.
Then add a little something something to it so that when Ms yong eats it, she will get diarrhoea.
Just kidding. I wana get a good mark and i also wana eat it for recess, and share it with bananatoast sofi!
That is,,, if it turns out good. and not burnt. It will taste tasty. =))
my mum will teach me i guess cause her shepherd'spie is superr delicious.

Today;
Woke up at 7.00 to go for maths supplemetry at 8.00.
Got a scolding from my moms in the morning,. spoil my day.
Today when i studying then start scolding me again. Ahe what i cant remeber wahtever shit.
Our family aint got much love. Its all about disciplining yourself.
Oh ya, she scolded us about discipling ourselves. And then turned out to scold aobut my bad habits.
Screechy yee yaw yee yawthen voice loud loud.-her naggings sound like that.

------tHEN reach schoo, tiredd. everyone all so tired. During math test, i yawn like hell then after i finish then i like fall alseep, half awake half asleep actually.
Then Ms tan, was like , 'cassandra, wake up, check through your test paper.'

And then i check .

I dont have to study much anyway. My palm reading future stuff says that i'd marry at the age of 17 and by then, my succesful buisness will become even more succesful.
So, i got future. Can own a bungalow, got three sons. Having daughter must spend alot of money. She grow up wait everyday go out shopping, spend my hard earned money only. And oh yes, and i can get alot of nice shoes, designer bags, branded this that, all that top notch stuff,

And i'll donate some to charity. -i guess.
And i give to my parents. And i can travel alot. Go see paris, london all that famous tourists places. And then i go climb mount everest.
And go water-skiing. Skuba diving at tioman., surf boarding,
Go bali again, see volcano, climb the volcano.

Go australia visit my great grandmother. She is now 90 years old and still strong. =). She looks like my gr

andmother.

NAH. My great grandma looks my dearr grandma. My grandma is the one mixing the dough. Cooking skills, it runs in my family. =)

Just kidding.

Oh yes, she and my grandpa coming down to singapore soon. Man i miss them so. SO so much.

They so cute, how can i not miss them.

let your heart out.

Firstly, HAPPY 13TH BIRHTDAY LIJUAN!

I think I gotta get her a present when i've saved enough money. =)

Afiqa's b'day is on the 12th and my brother's on the 22nd. Saturday gotta go to pasir ris as some kind of church class outing. Part of me wants to go and the other part just wants to skip it.

Im skipping dinner today. Just not in the mood to eat. HAHA. This is so cute. can hear my sister fighting with my brother over a can of pepsi. Cause he drank too much. But we, like, drink 2 cans of pepsi everyday. And , coke is really bad cause it contains alot of sugar and pepsi is better. =) Cause it contains less sugar.

And i cant like use the phone any damn time i wana use it. its really getting on my nerves.

OH DAMN.....Sofi just reminded me there's a like home econs theory test tmr. I'll just flunk it. Home econs,,,i think its a waste of my time. But i think teacher already has a bad impression about me. Just got that feeling.

I know how to make chocolate chip cookies, muffins, shepards pie and stuff like that. But not thattt good. But cooking is sometimes fun. Right>?>??

I forgot. I cant believe i forgot. School is reopening tomorrow.

Dread~

let your heart out.

God, my body feels so warm but im so cold.

I feel like im soo sick, but im not.

Been feeling so damn tired these past few days,.

But I cant seem to fall asleep at night.'

Im having this really annoying sore throat,soo hoarse, it makes my throat feel like its buring or something,

I cant talk. Cause it hurts.

I also caught a flu and i cough real bad sometimes.....

AHH.

Just coughed.

Again....

Im so tired........

Oh shit, got bible class tmr, i skipped it last week.

But its so troublesome, so early in the morining, i dont think i can get up.

But i promised eliza and evan that i'll be there.

My arm hurts, that kind of numb pain feeling.

Oh, the phone's ringing.

But its not for me.

Oh god,My throat hurts

Just kill mmmeeeeeee,,,,,,,,

AND, did i mention shao jun and kat came to my house today?

We talked alot and that made my throat even worse.

Afew minutes kat called and i was coughing into the phone,

Did i mention that they are super cute,

Like, for real?

I owe shao jun $1.50.

But i dont even have 10 cents in my fucking wallet.

I dead broke.

Thank god i dont live by myself,

then whereelse will i get money from?

I think i'll die.

I bring you down with me, we could fly away,

just like we did last summer. =)

let your heart out.

Mr. twohill is out.
Its sad cause i kinda wanted jasmine out,
No idea why....
He should make a record deal and do albums.
He left an image there in SI though.

Well, im kinda down,
cause im in deep shit,
and i dont know what will happen,
I love this superman song man...
Even heroes have the right to bleed; to dream.

I even changed the lyrics to the cover page of this blog,

and the song,

Im that in love with this song,

You just feel so at peace with this song.

That kind of feeling....

I'd just dream of flying off with my superman....

Him wearing his funny red sheet,

Yeah right?

Ahh,,,yes

let your heart out.

Miss them so much.

They are so crazy that i love them so much.

I really wana go out but then, my mum wont let me.

Yeah, and i shall do a little dance with them. =). HAHA.

Im so lame that i laugh at my own jokes sometimes.=(

Thats how bored i am.

Im planning on doing the math project on sat.

Wana go debs hse to play with her dog.

Dont be jealous okay 'zaza'. haha.'

And i can be away from home. =)

And i have to call my friend. Promised to call him. It concerns something important.

And i like to know about important things, it makes my life seem so undullish

I've got this friend who wants me to turn emo. He is willing to teach me everything about it.

But, should i turn emo? No idea. Its itching me. Emo me? But i know some people who do want to turn emo. But must ask him first.

AND,

Its always study study study at home.

Equations, its all crap.

I'd crack my head just trying to find the solution,

I wonder if i'd ever get the right answer,

i dont fucking understand this question,

wont you just help me?

I used to love geog,

but now i find it a bore,

its not the topic,

Oh no, its you. I'll get caught up in this sucky fantasy of mine,

where you actually got me interested,

you tend to scare me sometimes,

when you start to raise your voice.

im sorry i dont get you, well maybe you're mumbling your way through,

Dont get me intimidated, it wont do you good,

I daydream because i like it, its my problem if i wana listen.

The naggings got me screaming, in my mind i hope to ditch it,

that cranky voice i listen to everyday,

as if i'd love to waste my precious time, no thanks, i've got better things to do,

I'd get wasted and drunk one night, each night,

like a fairytale that ends,

i'd meet my prince, and he'll go 'bangbang,

he knocked me out dead, god, i love him,

I'll call him my lovely princey gun...

dont forget, i like crapping too.

It makes me feel 'alive'.

let your heart out.

Mum and Dad,
Do I make you proud?

Why do you guys sometimes seem so dissapointed in me?

I tried to make you proud of me,
everyday of my life,
I'm pretty sure i failed each day,
am i a failure in studies?
is that what you want me to be?
Smart and perfect?
Someone you can boast about to your friends maybe?
I tried my best,
you always compare me to my brother,
Yes, i know he's perfect, but can you just accept me for who i am,
You never know that sometimes i cry softly at night,
mum, you are not the only one that cries,
you cried to me once, you told me about how i am such a failure

Dad, you're never around,
you dont know me well,
im capable of doing other things, not just studies,
Im better than some other kids that hang around all day doing nothing,
You've taken away my freedom, my handphone,
And trust me to hang out with the correct people,
You want to meet them all, and judge them,
Its not fair....

I try to put on a happy face everyday sunday when im with you guys,

But maybe we're just too perfect of a family?

It abnormal, we need some sharp edges,

let your heart out.

Devastating news.

Commerating steve irwin's death, I'd just like to say that he was a good man.
He stands for animal rights and I highly respect him. Hell yeah, I watch his show on animal planet almost everday with my sister.
We pray that his family- Terri Irwin and their two children aged eight and three, that they will be alright.
And send our deepest sympathy to them.

-please observe one minute of silence-

For those who does not know about his passing and how he died,you can visit this website ,
http://comingsoon.net/news/tvnews.php?id=16327

In loving memory of a great man, animal lover, father and husband,

let your heart out.

It seems like it never happen,

the day we drove out to the beach,

as we sat on the soft golden sand.

you played the guitar

and sang the song we wrote,

We drove into the sunset,

and turned up the radio,

We'll sing love songs and make vows to keep,

I pictured that moment

repeated each vow in my heart like a broken record.

I hope you'll keep to it,

broken promises never did me good,

like a little sail boat sailing out to sea,

it gets smaller and smaller as the distance gets wider and wider,

I dont want to be that sailboat,

I wana be close to you forever,

let your heart out.

Sorry eliza.

I didnt go. I wanted to. I really did.

Missed bible class.

I overslept.

I love to sleep.

Sleeping just rocks my life. =)

The weather is so cold that i could just go into the room and lock the door.

Cuddle up in my blanket..

And turn up the radio like nobody's buisness.

Except that my brother is playing xbox and he would totally get mad and ask me to lower the volume.

I could use the headphones and turn the volume real loud?

Close enough. =)

Im going to take my confiscated handphone now.

I know where my mum hides it.

I take it out whenever she's gone.

Shh...

But now the battery is flat and i cant charge it.

I need a new pair of school shoes.

Mine is tearing.

Why is it that my shoes all wear down so fast.

Oh damn, my mom home.

No chance.

I miss my cell though....

let your heart out.

I feel so bored.
But also happy.
Cause today I went shopping.=)
Bought this sweater thingy shirt. Its nice. =)
And i dont know what to wear tomorrow for bible class.
So difficult to find something out of your closet.
Oh yes, i bought this reallyyy NICE babydoll dress at like $40 to $50.
It was worth it.
SO NICE. Bought it at topshop?
I cant remember.........................

But there are things i really want to get.
I mean like REALLY wana do and get
#1 Big shades.
#2 new contact lenses.
#3 rebond hair
#4 tapled jeans
#5 denim shorts
#6 those really nice long necklaces
#7 handbags. Like really nice ones.

#8 clothes from topshop

these are currently my urgents.
Im saving money. =)

let your heart out.

What am I doing on a nice school-free friday?
Well, nothing much.
Went out just now. For alittle while.
Now im bored at home.
Im cold, its about to rain.
Would you be so nice to go get me a nice blazier or sweater?
I dont think so.

Would you get me really nice and big shades to shield me from the blazing sun on a sunny day?
I really want one.

Oh, this is so random.
It because im bored.

Oh yes, i love icons. <33

They make me scream.

I got lots of them.

I put them up all the time.

let your heart out.

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